EMERGE
[an offering]
Take a seat
Wild and free
Between the forest and the trees
[an opening]
To emerge maybe you first need to have an emergency. To feel things out. To unravel a little. To meet yourself in the not-so-sure state of being, because the strength that emerges from within vulnerability, that’s the beauty.
[a beginning]
with all of this unraveling
I will make something from it
slow down
reel it in
take time
take time
take time
peel those sheets from your eyes
I feel like crying
no, you can’t stop me now.
float tears
salt lingers
trickle down my face
soft whispers
heart aches
replace
dark days
Pressing the ground with my hand
she bends down
waves of light
encapsulate dreams
follow me into the fields
where the tide pools low
and and heat waves linger
we found a clearing in the waves
splashing forward to be brave
warm water like a hot spring
I come from my father
and my mother
Mother
mama
mommy
rock me
mom
ma
Silence
Comes from the knowing and
Unknowing of
The mother
Who taught you to be so forgiving?
So passive
Impassive
Passing
Passed by
Past.
What’s in the past that
Made You
Made you
Made you
You?
What do we do
for the survival of Ourselves?
our Relationships?
Friendships?
The Protection
of those we care about
and are too fearful to lose
What have we done
that has tampered
with our moral code?
and the protection
of those
little lies
question our moral eyes
moral E Y E S
demoralize
moral L I E S
What’s in a name?
What’s in a name
that makes us
makes us
decide
when to shelter
and what to
expose
deep within
our broken bones
Shutter.
Eyes
Wide
Open
No! you can’t stop me now
Waterfalls
And broken streams
And light that dances between two
Shimmering
Soft
Translucent
Bodies
of water
That come together
And break off at the core
Of their essence
And reunite again
At the bottom
Grading
Degrade
Offset
Off
To the -
and back -
one more time
again.
She said silently
Not even whispering
In the midst of something
Interrupted
By another form
Or some version of herself
And she
And she
Weeped in her strength
And climbed the web of silky
Shimmering spider
Spun strings
Of strength
And eight legs
Strong as wool
yet hard to see
--somewhere in between--
One side
Bright luminous light
Caught in the sun
it shines
its rainbow
Reflection
Before catching the fly that bit her.
Wrapping slowly
Its prey
In the web inside of her
Womb-like strength
That births life
and wraps it tight.
Suffocation.
Can’t speak
No voice
She gets wrapped
And wrapped
And wrapped
Again
By tape
Around her neck and across her chest
over her mouth
And like a butterfly
Breaking through the caterpillars cocoon
She learns to fly.
Darkness brighter than light
takes its toxins
and carve them tight
into the skull as they sink in quick
down the hall
ring the bell
she shutters from hell
heat rises onto her thighs
and darkness looms like a black bird high
in the sky
the crow told you so
two snakes on the path
Anxiety is.
anxiety is.
anxiety is
is
spin out
spin down
spun
gripped
gripping me
get out
get in
get out
I can’t get out!
a worried mind
mourns the loss of you
before it loses you
an obsessive mind washes
soap off soap.
anxiety is
head under the sheets
it’s deep in the pit
of your stomach
your core
it’s a subtle hisssssssssssss
and sometimes it’s as loud as a drummmmmmm
it’s
it’s nausea in the morning
it’s
it’s
it’s
it’s
it’s should I go to the store now?
or, is later better?
should I go at all?
did I? did I?
did I turn off the oven?
lock the door?
check again!
check again!
check again!
go for a run - you’ll feel better.
it’s hold on, I’m coming over
I’ll be there in 10
I’m running late
I had to check the…
I had to…
i
i
i….
be gentle.
think gently.
guide your breath.
TAKE YOURSELF BACK.
I hiked in the rockies
in a valley of dense
yellow, orange, green pines
engulfed.
Air that is brisk in the lungs and expansive
belly bulging air.
ice cold lake and wind
that gusts, sweeping the water
into a tornado
like fog
rolling on the west coast
blocking sight lines
of buildings
and bridges
that keep us apart.
Elements:
water
air
wind
air
fire
air
earth
air
we traversed
and
soaked in
like honey bees
do pollen.
fallen.
We sat on a rock in a clearing
On Grandfather mountain
and talked about Godiverse
Mud from the ground is Adam
He looked him in the face
Face. Flesh.
Face & Flesh
He grabbed him by the neck
He pulled him by the throat
You're here
You're here now
A rainbow of energy
Your purest self
Yourself before you
No absolutes.
I sat in a pew of a church and just cried,
it overwhelmed me.
I floated naked in the pool of a waterfall
and became filled with awe,
it overwhelmed me.
wash over me
like a
cool drip of water
fresh waves
turn to dark sand
on luminous light
flustered
to reveal
tender eyes
dripping salt tears
on the backside of a wave
between a dream and real time
her head floats back onto a cloud
drifting off from this earth
unsettled and unsure
the moonlight drifts without a sound
sunshine beats onto the ground
I want to taste you
taste your wild.
your wild
delicious
scrumptious
abstractions of the mind
on a hill high above
where no one else can see
What do you see when you see me?
Qhat do you feel when you feel me?
(do you feel my free?)
emerge
emergence
emergency
e-mer
e-mer
emerging
e-mer
e-mer
a murmur
a murmuring
emergence
like waterfalls
and wild eyes
and fallen trees
and hammocks that sway
she will be free
truth has it
truth has it
in time.
Tune in.
Turn off.
Listen,
She was once
a
a
Wildflower
Standing tall
silver and gold
stalks
pearls
Dandelion
kiss
wide
eyed
open